caring

The last three weeks have been difficult. I’ve been to the various hospitals that plan to look after my dad and I’ve cared. I hope and pray it doesn’t happen to me and feel such a swell of relief that it can’t happen to my child through VHL, but I have.

Putting a nappy on your dad and the n going home to pt one on your baby girl pushes irony to its limit. I fed him his soup, I have washed him I have helped him clean his teeth. I have listened to him try and articulate his thoughts and feelings.

My father is a wonderful man and he should have been loving this time of his life. He should have been able to relish his retirement. He gave all he could to his job and I never in all those years felt neglected or that his work came before us, ever. I was a very lucky girl because both my parents worked but I was always of the opinion that we, their children, were the most important people in the world. We still are. I really hope my child feels the same when she is 30 and 15 for that matter.
When are you allowed to let old age take the blame for what happens to you?

VHL is getting all the blame so far.

Well it deserves it.