I was thinking of my sister running that far and the stamina it will take, the conviction and commitment to get to the end. She told me that to get her there she will be thinking of me, my dad and our brother. There are memories that will push her through; like the time they locked down the ward after I had had brain surgery because Myra Hindley was also having brain surgery.
My sister was trying to get me a bedpan and wanted to tell the press who were waiting outside the ward that I had wet the bed because they wouldn’t let anyone on or off. To do this she had to shout out 'my sister has wet the bed.'.
We often laugh about the things that happen in the days relief after surgeries, something many of us who live with VHL must do.
Where did my race start? Slowly that’s for sure - anyone who has seen me run will know that; and a slow runner doesn’t break a sweat and I didn’t. My father has had a number of surgeries ones I wasn’t alive for or too young to know about but when I was a teenager he had to have brain surgery that meant one evening I said goodbye, just in case the next time I saw him he was dead, or as my mother had warned me, brain damaged. He was fine and I jogged on further, still fine but then things started to get very difficult.
We loved my brother so much, and his death changed us all. Until his death I had experienced VHL as a novelty really, something that meant that we had tests and despite that nerve racking time when dad had surgery, there was nothing that hurt for very long. It felt like a half way point of the race, the hardest bit.
I had to decide if I was going to give up or carry on. It was one of the loneliest times of my life. It was at his funeral that I decided I had to carry on, make it to the end. My big brothers life was far too short but he never found out just how horrible VHL can be. I’m now ten years older than my big brother and I’m still going, even though I can’t see the end. He died before we all knew what a painful experience it can be. He did a sprint. The rest of us are doing a marathon.
So please give a little because the finish line should be hope and a cure which we can’t get without money!
UK donation are best through this site http://www.justgiving.com/Chloe-Doherty US ones through http://www.firstgiving.com/jorunning
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