VHL awareness month

And the month that my dad died in. 

I'm missing knowing he's alive and I'm feeling so deeply sad. 

Right now my life is very unsettled and I feel all sorts of vulnerable. 

So much so I'm annoyed by things I can usually rise above. 

I'm annoyed by things that I really just shouldn't be. 

I'm annoyed I don't get to see him - the healthy well him. 

And I'm so sad. 

I'm lost at sea.