I had to get up very early, it should have been my first day back at school but I had a Day Curve. That’s when you have your blood taken through the day to see how much cortisone you have in your system. I was due for one anyway but we need to see if my baby is taking it and leaving me with too little. I haven’t had one done at Barts before but they are very thorough. As I was laying on the bed, (something to do with blood pressure I think) another person came in and ear-wigging I realised that he was having a day curve too. Now I’m having it because I don’t have any adrenal glands, but some women can have conditions where their adrenal glands don’t work, like Addisons. Anyway. He was a he so I started to wonder. We always used to wonder, my family and I, if people in waiting rooms had VHL but we never asked. My mum never wanted me to join one of those support groups because she didn’t want me to fall in love with someone with VHL and have a real problem having babies. I think that she also worried that we would hear horror stories or that our problems would upset others. Back to the day curve. So you have blood taken then you’re free for a period of time, sometimes just 30mins sometimes 2hours. There is a day room to go to and I took a good book and some school work and a deck of cards, hopeful that my partner would leave work early and come and entertain me. (He did) So after my third lot of blood I went into the day room and there was the other day curver. We exchanged hellos and then my curiosity took over. ‘You having a cortisone day curve?’ ‘Yes, you?’ ‘Yes.’ Pause. ‘Are you under Prof C?’ ‘Yep.’ ‘Me too.’ Then the moment of truth. ‘Have you got VHL?’ ‘Yes.’ ‘Me too, rare bunch aren’t we?’ And we got to talking. It was good. By the end of the day I felt a bit like I knew loads about him. We talked about our operations, our families, the losses the way we found out. We discussed our levels, I told him I was pregnant and he seemed really pleased, which was lovely because as odd as it sounds I thought he might say, that’s stupid why have you done that don’t you know the risks, but he didn’t. In fact when my partner turned up we talked about our knowledge of thinking about having a baby as a couple and he seemed to find this, well comforting, maybe.
There was a connection, almost like a distant family member. It’s good to meet others, to know we exist and we are strong and alive. It’s sad to hear of those who have died but I was proud to say my dad is on his way to 60 and still working. It gives hope. Too British to really make a leap into the unknown and offer a phone number, so I left a little card with my email address on it on his bag when he was having his penultimate blood done as we went home. Who knows if he will get in touch, I’ll let you know.
Yeah! An update!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear the baby is doing well.
Steven travels to NIH twice a year to be followed by neurosurgery. It took us three visits to realize we were sitting in a waiting room full of VHLers! When I realized I felt "home"! It was a very lonely 18 months before that.
I'm also with you in the fear of sharing stories. I realized that everyone had VHL before Steven did, and I didn't share that with him until we were out of the clinic area...because of some effects that were obvious in the room.
Tough life...in a way.
I can sort of relate to what you felt over meeting someone with the same problem. My son has problems and it's always a relief when I can talk to another mother who is dealing with the same thing -stops you from feeling so isolated and helps in some way. Glad that Bub is going O.K. :).
ReplyDeleteI don't know that I have VHL (it's a possibility given family history) but I do have renal cell carcinoma. I belong to an active renal cell patients' group; before I found the group I felt quite alone, despite the support I got from family and friends. Nothing like fellow club members for understanding, particularly when nobody really wants to join the club ...
ReplyDeleteGood luck with all. I'll be following your blog for more posts -