wanting to be like everyone else

 When I was a teenager it felt like everyone else had started their periods and I hadn't and I was laughed at when I said I had had one but not another one, accused of lying all sorts. Then I got them and they are rubbish as everyone knows they are.  Now I feel like everyone else is on HRT and going through perimenopause and I keep wondering if I am. I don't want the bad stuff of this either. And I sort of just want to be like everyone else but I'm not. My body is different. It has done things others don't.