Saturday, March 12, 2022

spring and winter

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It's that time of year. In the UK the sun is making more of an effort and here is raining, lots. Here the nights draw in, as much as the...
Friday, February 18, 2022

happy birthday

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Each time, each time, each time for so many times.  I wonder and I know there's no point But I wonder
Thursday, February 10, 2022

seeing your mum again

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I was telling my friend Tabitha about my mum and how wonderful it was to see her happy because she was doing what she does best .. helping t...
Tuesday, February 01, 2022

the good news

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The journey, not the destination. I'm certainly always on one. The twists and turns. Right now I'm back in a lovely bit of road, it...
Sunday, January 16, 2022

it's probably nothing

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Sat on a toilet. Common I think. Here I am taking it all in to make sure I can face my baby girl. "Prof wants to see you face to face...
Monday, January 10, 2022

Home and a cushion

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We made it home in one piece, the unpacking began, I always do it before I sit down. We have one bag missing but happily it is one that only...
Sunday, January 02, 2022

all of the reasons home is harder

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We've now done all the 'homes'  They are all harder than would be ideal They all have people They all make more sense when you...
Friday, December 31, 2021

familiar chairs, unfamiliar faces

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I'm sitting in the yellow chairs of the imagining department. It's been like this for a while, the changes and improvements continue...
Monday, December 27, 2021

winter is different

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I'm looking at one of the fastest pigeons I've ever seen. I have on a hat and scarf to begin to warm up for a walk in the grey cold ...
Saturday, December 18, 2021

it's raining

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Here in the heat of Africa's warm heart I'm watching the long awaited rain begin to fall. It's been almost a month since there w...
Friday, December 17, 2021

Familiar strangers

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I suspect that many people have more than one home. And some, none. I'm about to leave home to go home.  I'm nervous, excited, longi...
Wednesday, December 15, 2021

flying home for Christmas

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I won't believe it until I'm in my mum's arms, but we're going. Red lists, politics and my own sense of trepidation aside, w...
Monday, November 22, 2021

inheritance

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I get half the House One day
Saturday, October 23, 2021

Facebook memories

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It's this time of year when Facebook reminds me of that time. 6 years now, 6 years I really didn't think I'd have on some of tho...
Saturday, October 16, 2021

how she died

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I wonder what it was like for my Gran, the one I never met, that my dad hardly knew. I wonder what her death was like. Dying of a brain tumo...
Friday, October 15, 2021

my friend...

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A pal of mine is having brain surgery today. It's the 6 year anniversary that I was admitted into hospital for my second brain tumour. S...
Sunday, October 10, 2021

I don't remember

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I do. I remember being so utterly helpless and so in need of someone to help me take a shit in a bed. I remember only being able to piss a l...
Friday, October 08, 2021

happy birthday

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It's been a hard week, I don't recall feeling this level of grief for a long time. When after his death it seemed easier. I think it...
Thursday, September 16, 2021

stillness

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It's the stillness I have here that makes it better for me I think. Reflecting on my work like balance, seeing and hearing about the pac...
Wednesday, September 08, 2021

rare but treasure

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It isn't often that I get to be useful in my experience of the medical world, but I could be tonight. I got to say things that helped  I...