eyes and eyes but no one is looking

just that I notice it and I notice it every day. Nothing will change I suppose.

ummm

contradiction

I watch 'Ugly Betty' I know but it is escapism. I have hiccups right now and have decided to watch ‘House’. This is my Friday night viewing when my baby is asleep and my love is out, i may be a bit lame but I’ve been upset by what I see. I want Dr House to fix my dad’s case and I have to remind myself that the only way the episodes work is that someone already did.

Dad isn’t fixed yet and then Betty, dear, all good, well meaning, horribly moral Betty is letting her family down. She is letting them down because she is prioritising her life above that of her parent. Now this rings true, I too could move back home, could support more, could ask my newly formed family to change, I could not live the life I have been truly enjoying to ‘be’ with my father but I don’t want to. And to comfort me I think, believe, know that my father doesn’t want me to give up on any of my life either.
Now I am a mum, now I see what she wants I find it very hard to say no. Of course I say no, of course I avoid giving in to the obvious bad habits (which includes TV which is hypocritical because of the addiction to TV I have myself) So in short... I’m not moving home, I’m planning to live this life and I will sacrifice much for my baby and I will love my dad, my mum, sister and all of them from here.
Am I wrong?