Friday, July 29, 2016

I'm angry now

It's the summer and, as I've mentioned time to relax, heal. But I'm just a bit too angry. I'm cross with the year I've had and I'm not sure how to get over it.
I chickened out of a counselling session I had arranged. Partly because I was an idiot and booked it on the day of my daughter's birthday, but also because I wasn't ready. I still had some days left at work. I figured it would weaken me. I didn't have time for that.
So I told myself I would not work for a few days and relax, do very little. I have done just that and I find myself angry.
I'm angry that I didn't have the year I wanted and it's mainly  (not entirely) VHL's fault.
I've had time and space but the draw of work email dragged me back in. Each time I've looked, I've felt angry again.
Other people are very self centred, as am I.
I think I need a total detox of social media and email. I need a proper break. I need to break from the whole universe.

Despite being almost half way through the break I'm still angry.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Settling into normality

The all clear and the end of term. There will be lots of not doing much, seeing if I can heal mentally and do a bit of working on the physical.

Tuesday, July 05, 2016

https://vhl.org/about/resources/vhl-facts/

Sunday, July 03, 2016

A sad day

My uncle died yesterday... he had cancer. Nothing to do with VHL. It's very sad. Cancer gets there, doesn't it.

Saturday, July 02, 2016

All checked up and burden free

Dad and I had our annual review and phew, no surgery planned for this year. I know that this might change. Last year taught me that the very unexpected can happen with VHL, but hopefully this year will be OK.