Saturday, September 30, 2006

Dad Update (An email)

Hello everybody
Just to keep you in the know. Dad spent last week at hospital again and was thoroughly tested, prodded about and medicated and the news at the moment is that they are going to try and increase his medication as it was doing some good. 

He also endured a rather painful 4min long injection of testosterone but the result is that he can now lift a sword aloft, cry ‘I have the power’ and any near by tigers turn from quivering, speaking wimps to ferocious Skelator fighting warriors.

p.s. dad says please don’t send any of your men to challenge him (or tigers for that matter)

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Beauty Queen

Recently I was at an event, not my sisters wedding but a big party type thing. Now as big headed as this is going to make me sound I looked great, I had made a real effort. 

I felt fantastic and I walked out from the bathroom where I had changed from my jeans and t-shirt and into the room where several people were gathered. Words like ‘stunning’ and ‘amazing’ were used. A friend of ours even let his jaw drop. I looked good and my boyfriend didn’t comment. 

Later on I was thinking about it and I asked him at my sisters wedding if he thought I looked good and then I thought back and well he doesn’t do that, he doesn’t say I look good. 

Lots of other people did. So I wonder if he doesn’t see me as stunning or amazing maybe it can’t see anything but my imperfections. Perhaps it is because he knows about me, he sees more than just the outer layer of me. It made me feel a little bit sad but also I sort of expect it from him as he isn’t the kind of man to only be with someone because of the way they look. He of course tells me that he loves me and I am confident that he does. And I know that in the recent past that he has said that he fancies me but that is generally when he is either trying to, or just about to get his leg over. I’m prepared to be proved paranoid but I’m also pissed off by the possibility that it might be true.