I don't know

If he loves me. I'm not even sure if he likes me right now. There's a small distain in his interaction that makes me wonder. 

Don't get me wrong... When you live with someone this long it's hard to like them all the time. I just know that when I spend time with people who do like me it feels like they do. 

I wonder if he feels stuck. No one wants to be the one who leaves the woman who has

Cancer

Work woes

Spine tumour 

The list won't get any shorter 

Should I ask?

Or just give him space? 

I would love it if he really liked me. 

fear is normal

 Today I cried before I went to skate, to hit and use my body the way it currently can. Today I wondered when I would return after the next enforced break. I've got up to 6 left if surgery is when it has been pencilled in for. I've got 6 left until the day I take a chance. 

I feel a little unsure all of a sudden, tempting fate? 

holding on

The difference of having this when your young is the people you've collected they are great but can't know. 

Now I'm able to hold onto people who really get it. 

I will keep holding on