As expected

 There is an oddity in all this. 

"it's time for it to come out" and I had been anticipating it. I can track the growth and knew it would be within the next couple of years, but I had hoped for a bit more time. 

But getting it out - something I wanted so much for the last one. I wanted to wait, I wanted to feel settled. I wanted to know I had a proper job. And I still don't know. I am now waiting to see the surgeon. 

Strange too, to cry about getting rid of cancer. After this, it will be gone. After this I start that clock again. Because  it doesn't end. 

How you give the news matters, I have given my usual optimistic slant.