arm

Today I felt a strange sensation in my arm. The left one. Different to the recent fuzzy feeling. This was more like a dull ache - this was similar to when I had my first brain tumour. 

I wonder if I'm creating symptoms to give me a good reason to have this surgery - so that it becomes inevitable rather than my choice. 

My backs been hurting. I'm feeling more stressed - despite my new fancy watch just telling me I'm really not. 

I want a date that it definitely happening. 

Ummm.